To The Pointwith Boris Bozic
Commentary, Opinions, Thoughts and Discussion on Current Events, Politics and The Mortgage Industry
I think we’re all guilty of making things out to be a lot worse than they really are. It’s easy to become overwhelmed just thinking about all the responsibilities we all have in our personal and professional lives. A good dose of perspective can always shake you back to reality and remind you of what’s truly a problem and what’s nothing more than melodrama. I received a good dose perspective over the last 10 days.
It was 10 days ago when I started not to feel very well, I started experiencing chest pains. I didn’t think it was heart attack, why would a 52 year old, slightly overweight man with high cholesterol think that? To be on the safe side I went to the doctor and he put me through a battery of tests. I was right, no heart attack. The doctor wanted me to be thorough so they sent me off to get x-rays done on my chest. The next day the doctor called me and said, “Your x-ray indicated that you have a small nebular density on your lung. We believe it’s benign but we cannot rule out cancer. We’re going to arrange a CT scan on chest to get a better look, and from there we can determine what the next steps will be.”
Funny how everything changed from the moment I heard those words. The last 10 days have been difficult. Business meetings, home life, CAAMP meetings, all the things that make up my day was nothing more than a charade. I was having conversations all the while thinking that I might have cancer. The mind works that way. I didn’t focus on the word “benign” and the fact that it may not actually be cancer. The fact that it might be cancer is overpowering. The conversations I had with myself over the last 10 days ranged from I’ll get through this to I need to get my personal matters in order. I’ll say this, never once did I think that somehow it’s unfair that this could be happening to me. My god, children get cancer so it clearly has nothing to do with being fair or unfair. Most of my thoughts revolved around how my family was going to deal with it? Thankfully I won’t have to find the answer to that. I received a call from my doctor yesterday saying all is good, no cancer. A relief would be an understatement. A wake up call? Indeed. Perspective? What really is and is not a problem? Absolutely. Getting a call from your doctor saying you might have cancer is a problem; angst over who might speaking at Mortgage Forum 2012, is melodrama.
Until next time,
Cheers.
Mark Mighton @Twitter ID Website
November 20 2012 13:44 pm Boris Bozic